The Dark Side of Breast Implants: Why I Ditched the Drama for a Flatter Life
For 22 years, I've been shouldering around with two bags of saline water on my chest – a secret I only shared with a handful of close friends. It was a weighty burden, and one that I'm glad to be free from.
As an outdoorsy mountain runner, I've always sought to live life naturally. But having breast implants ran counter to that vision. They were a symbol of a beauty standard that felt suffocating – thin body, round fuller breasts. The problem was, my little A-cups had shrunk back down after breastfeeding, leaving me with a flat chest that made me view myself as tough and unappealing.
Growing up, I was conditioned to value the appearance of well-shaped breasts in order to please men. My mom used to test her own breast tissue by placing a pencil under them, while my dad kept his spare change in a ceramic mug shaped like a woman's naked upturned breast. It was no wonder that after puberty hit, I worried about my small chest and padded my bras.
At 34, I was struggling with low self-confidence as a stay-at-home mom with a shelved career. I turned to implants as a way to redeem myself in my marriage and please the man I loved at the time. But it was a mistake. The implants didn't bring me happiness; they created a burden that I carried for years.
Now, at 56, I've had them removed – explant surgery without replacement. It's been liberating, but not without its challenges. My body feels wonderfully aerodynamic when I run or work out, and going braless is as freeing as unbuttoning a too-tight waistband.
But the journey to getting rid of my implants wasn't easy. The hardening capsular contracture made it uncomfortable to sleep on my stomach, and the surgery itself was expensive ($5,617). For two weeks after, I had plastic bulbs hanging from tubes exiting my ribcage to drain fluid – not exactly a glamorous look.
It's clear that more women are seeking explant surgery. The International Society for Aesthetic Plastic Surgery found that implant removal surgeries worldwide nearly doubled between 2017 and 2022. And it's not just about the physical benefits; many women choose explant because of breast implant illness (BII) – an array of symptoms such as joint pain, rashes, and autoimmune reactions.
Women like Jaime McDonald and Debbie Sironen are speaking out about their experiences with implants. McDonald got her implants at 19, only to find that they made her feel uncomfortable and self-conscious. She eventually lost them after falling in love and marrying a woman who loved her for who she was.
Sironen had her implants removed after divorcing an ex-husband who wanted her to get them. Now, she says she has no regrets – "I like the way I am now, although sometimes I feel self-conscious." She's learned to buy prosthetic forms to give the appearance of small breasts filling an A-cup, but she's confident in being herself.
For me, getting rid of my implants was a wake-up call. It forced me to re-evaluate my priorities and focus on what truly matters – health, happiness, and self-acceptance. I'm letting go of caring about being attractive in the eyes of others and embracing my natural flat chest. And it's freeing.
As more women choose to ditch their implants, they're joining a growing movement towards acceptance and self-love. It's time to redefine beauty standards that prioritize youth and size over health and happiness. By shedding our insecurities and embracing our unique bodies, we can become stronger, wiser, and more radiant versions of ourselves – without the need for artificial enhancements.
For 22 years, I've been shouldering around with two bags of saline water on my chest – a secret I only shared with a handful of close friends. It was a weighty burden, and one that I'm glad to be free from.
As an outdoorsy mountain runner, I've always sought to live life naturally. But having breast implants ran counter to that vision. They were a symbol of a beauty standard that felt suffocating – thin body, round fuller breasts. The problem was, my little A-cups had shrunk back down after breastfeeding, leaving me with a flat chest that made me view myself as tough and unappealing.
Growing up, I was conditioned to value the appearance of well-shaped breasts in order to please men. My mom used to test her own breast tissue by placing a pencil under them, while my dad kept his spare change in a ceramic mug shaped like a woman's naked upturned breast. It was no wonder that after puberty hit, I worried about my small chest and padded my bras.
At 34, I was struggling with low self-confidence as a stay-at-home mom with a shelved career. I turned to implants as a way to redeem myself in my marriage and please the man I loved at the time. But it was a mistake. The implants didn't bring me happiness; they created a burden that I carried for years.
Now, at 56, I've had them removed – explant surgery without replacement. It's been liberating, but not without its challenges. My body feels wonderfully aerodynamic when I run or work out, and going braless is as freeing as unbuttoning a too-tight waistband.
But the journey to getting rid of my implants wasn't easy. The hardening capsular contracture made it uncomfortable to sleep on my stomach, and the surgery itself was expensive ($5,617). For two weeks after, I had plastic bulbs hanging from tubes exiting my ribcage to drain fluid – not exactly a glamorous look.
It's clear that more women are seeking explant surgery. The International Society for Aesthetic Plastic Surgery found that implant removal surgeries worldwide nearly doubled between 2017 and 2022. And it's not just about the physical benefits; many women choose explant because of breast implant illness (BII) – an array of symptoms such as joint pain, rashes, and autoimmune reactions.
Women like Jaime McDonald and Debbie Sironen are speaking out about their experiences with implants. McDonald got her implants at 19, only to find that they made her feel uncomfortable and self-conscious. She eventually lost them after falling in love and marrying a woman who loved her for who she was.
Sironen had her implants removed after divorcing an ex-husband who wanted her to get them. Now, she says she has no regrets – "I like the way I am now, although sometimes I feel self-conscious." She's learned to buy prosthetic forms to give the appearance of small breasts filling an A-cup, but she's confident in being herself.
For me, getting rid of my implants was a wake-up call. It forced me to re-evaluate my priorities and focus on what truly matters – health, happiness, and self-acceptance. I'm letting go of caring about being attractive in the eyes of others and embracing my natural flat chest. And it's freeing.
As more women choose to ditch their implants, they're joining a growing movement towards acceptance and self-love. It's time to redefine beauty standards that prioritize youth and size over health and happiness. By shedding our insecurities and embracing our unique bodies, we can become stronger, wiser, and more radiant versions of ourselves – without the need for artificial enhancements.